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In the wilderness

I haven’t posted here in a long time. I needed to think about what I was saying and for a long time I had no desire to write.  I felt I had nothing to say and I lost my direction.

Then at Christmas (my favourite time of year) I read The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins.  Why, oh why did I choose to read it then?  He confused me and put me in an awful mood with raging doubts.  Dawkins does write well and a lot of his arguments have been going around in my head for a long time and he is convincing.  I wish I had a faith that was a strong as some people I know.  The unshakeable kind! So, I suffered my doubts and have been in a sort of wilderness. But God doesn’t seem to want to let me go.

Despite my doubts I have continued to attend church, even though sometimes it felt like going through the motions.  When I did miss a week I felt there was something missing.  I find it hard to describe how I feel at times and why I am so drawn to churches and spiritual matters.  However much I try to ignore them they work themselves into me and to be honest I cannot imagine my life without a faith.  It is too deep within me.

Easter is a time of new life, spring brings hope.  Creation is wonderful isn’t it?